The Nevermore Chronicles

What 20 lbs difference looks like

2010-01-14T00:41:00.005-05:00

This is at 254 pounds, four months ago.

And this is today. 20 pounds lighter.

Will post pictures again when I'm another 20 pounds down (which should be April or May) :)

GASP New Post! And a recipe too!!

2010-01-06T09:10:00.002-05:00

Happy 2010 everyone!

Here's my recipe for 'Breakfast Burritos' (and please, all you authentic Latin-American/Latin-Canadian ppls out there, don't mess with my methods, even if they aren't authentic LOL). All these measurments are approximate, don't go completely by the recipe!

Filling:

1/4 to 1/2 cup finely cubed cheese (your choice)
4-6 hard-boiled eggs
1/4 cup finely chopped onion
1/4 to 1/2 cup fat-free sour cream (just enough to make it all stick together)
2-4 large (10" or more) tortillas (I like using flavoured ones myself)
6-12 slices ham (shaved or very thinly sliced ham works best)
1/4 cup chili sauce

Place tortillas on a flat surface, spoon about a tablespoon of chili sauce in the top middle of the tortilla. Layer two or three thin slices of ham on top. Mix together the cheese, onions, eggs (after they've been well mashed) and sour cream and spoon it into the tortilla on top of the ham/chili sauce. Roll burrito-style and enjoy!!

Hubby loves this. I must admit that for a low-fat meal, it was SO filling, I only had one.

Started weight-loss regimen again back in October, with strict instructions from OBGYN to lose 30 pounds before even considering partial hysterectomy surgery. Have lost 20 of those 30 doing nothing but Zumba as often as I can and just laying off the junk food (white bread, white sugar, ad nauseum). My 2010 resolution was to simply get HEALTHY. Being a size 12 by my birthday (middle of July) wouldn't hurt either ;)

Because Twitter is too effing short!!

2009-08-27T15:08:00.002-04:00

Hey everyone...as you can see by my last post, it has been WAYYYY too long since I last blogged. I guess it's because I just haven't found the inspiration in a long time. The overwhelming response to a simple Tweet yesterday has gotten my ass off the proverbial blogging couch, so to speak.

For several years now (indeed, since I started having children at the age of 20) I have struggled with my weight. When I was pregnant with Peej I gained 65 pounds, losing 30 of it almost immediately, putting me at a very comfortable size 12 (I had been a "perfect" size 8 before). I'm fairly tall for a woman at 5'8" so a few extra pounds on me was always easy to hide slash redistribute. When Chrisco came along, I was the heaviest I'd ever been, tipping the scales at 252, losing only 18 pounds after his birth. I went on the Atkins Diet when he was about a year old and within a year, lost 70 pounds. I was never so happy in my life to once again fit into a size 12! My elation however, was shortlived, because as soon as I went back to trying to eat like a normal human being, the weight came back. After B-grrl was born two years later, I was still tipping the scales at 200+ pounds, but was in fairly good shape, so I wasn't worried as much as I had been in the past. I spent about eight and a half years bouncing from about 195 lbs to 205 lbs with generally good health. And then last year happened...

In March of last year, I got a new job... with the new job came the new clothes and I was sooo happy to be buying size 14 and even a few size 12's... I looked good, I felt good, and my new job was going very well (or so I thought). That job only lasted six months, tragically. I had a real hard time with the long commute and with the constant inter-staff competition (and out and out sabotage, frankly), and decided to return home. Having only a high-school education, three kids, a husband and a house to pay rent for, I chose to return to T.H.'s as a full time employee (which ironically, is making me more money than my 'dream job' was). Within three months, I had gained 20 pounds. I know what you must be thinking, if you know what T.H. stands for, but I tell you honestly and truly, I very very VERY rarely ever eat there. I find most of their food too heavy, sugary and expensive to eat there. I don't drink full-sugar sodas (haven't for a very long time because I'm hypoglycemic), and I don't generally eat heavy meals for dinner because I'm in bed by 8:00 p.m. every night (having to get up by 4:00).

To add insult to injury, Hubby got laid off in December (he is still jobless, for the most part, save for a few hours a week delivering pizzas), so my time after work is largely spent getting household chores done, and looking after my three children and husband. This is all assuming I haven't had a rough day at work, because eight hours in drive-thru very often leaves me exhausted (especially when I'm supervising) and barely able to move. I have problems with my back (from falling on ice while very pregnant with Chrisco 13.5 years ago), with my left knee (Osgoode Schlatter's disease that I still have the bump from when I was 10 years old), I have a bunion on my left foot the size of a ping-pong ball and now my reproductive organs are taking a header causing even more pain (it's a genetic thing with the women in my family that we all have had or will have full hysterectomies by the time we're 40... in case you did not know, that's only 3 years away for me). My body is literally falling apart, and I KNOW, yes I DO KNOW the weight on top of all of it isn't helping! I KNOW IT!!

The other day, I stepped on the scale for the first time since last December and was gobsmacked to see the numbers 254 screaming back at me. I knew I was heavy....but heavier than I was at 9 months pregnant with Chrisco? Are you effing shitting me?!!! I sat and cried for an hour, feeling very out of control and completely useless. I had established last time, that although Atkins worked for me very well (because it focuses on low-carb selections, which was good for my hypoglycemia), it wasn't good for me in the long term, so trying that was out. All my usual methods for getting a hold of my weight were either obsolete or no longer feasible...

When I mentioned resources that I was lacking, I didn't mean just a place to 'work out'. I have a walking route around my neighbourhood that, if I do the whole thing, covers 2.5 miles (not kilometres, MILES), and I could do that every day. I used to have an elliptical machine, but the only one I could afford at the time was a piece of crap and I spent more time trying to keep my feet in the footholds than I did actually using the damned thing. Our gyms here in town are fairly reasonably priced, but with me working full-time just to keep our heads above water financially (and trust me, we're using snorkels to get air here!), spending anything on something like that just isn't feasible, plausible or practical right now. Besides, when would I do this? I'm up at 4 a.m. every morning, work from 5:30 to 1:30, go home and do laundry/household chores/whathaveyou, make dinner, clean up after dinner (or get Peej to do it, heh) and then I'm in bed by 7 or 8 p.m!!

Honestly people, I'm NOT trying to garner sympathy here, I'm just trying to convey to everyone just how effing HARD it is to get where you want to go when your ass is laminated into your never-ending cycle of ACK!!!

I think I'm done with this gargantuan post. Any suggestions or comments you wish to make (that goes for my Twitter followers too, yaknow *smile*) are more than welcome at this point. I feel like I'm never going to be healthy again, never going to be able to do the things I want to do without physical and emotional pain. Thank you all again for your support and love... that combine with the same from my wonderful Hubby and kids are really all that's keeping me going at this point. I love each and every one of you and wish you all joy and peace.

Herb Bread sort-of-recipe

2009-02-16T21:21:00.002-05:00

Okay, here's the recipe for the white bread that I put in my bread machine. I'm sure if you mix these ingredients by hand it will turn out just fine as well.

1 cup water
2 tablespoons oil
1 tablespoons sugar
1 1/2 teaspoons salt
3 3/4 cups white flour
1 1/2 teaspoons yeast

So, either wait till your machine gives you the 'add ingredients' beep or if you're doing this by hand you can put in a combination of any (or all) of these herbs:

basil, summer savory, thyme, rosemary, italian seasoning, dill seed (or dill weed), cilantro, herb de provence, caraway seed

...and whatever herb you have handy!!

this makes a 1.5 lb loaf.

Yummmmm!

Just barely hanging on.

2009-02-12T18:43:00.002-05:00

Sounds trite, but it's true.

I'm barely hanging on here. I'm 100 lbs overweight, I'm in constant pain, and any attempts to lower my calorie intake, exercise, ANYTHING to change the way I am now has resulted in a snowball effect: I GAIN weight, my body is rebelling, and I sink deeper into a depression that no one seems to be catching.

Look, I'm not asking for sympathy okay? I told everyone when I started this blog again that I wasn't promising witty repartes and funny stories. This is where I'm at now and I'm doing this to purge myself of it so I can move on...or at least try.

And on top of all that, I know in my heart that working two jobs is just an express lane to the hospital. I took off sick to work today hoping to get in to see my doctor, but due to her just getting out of surgery herself, I can't get in to see her for two weeks, and to be perfectly honest, I don't think I'm a priority enough to go to Emerg. There are far more sick people out there. I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't.

I'm just...tired. Just tired.

Another nail in. the coffin

2009-01-30T08:31:00.003-05:00

Now I've got 'Another Brick in the Wall' stuck in my head. But I digress early on...

Hubby has received his termination of benefits registered letter. In other words, our $300 a month medical bill is going to hit us really hard starting next month (Hubby went out and got Peej a month's worth of his prescription yesterday).

He also found out that his department is empty. Gone. No machines. ie, he hasn't a job to go back to even if they call him back. They never intended this to be a 'temporary layoff', which, truth be told, was something we suspected all along.

So he's forming a letter, demanding what he is due. To the tune of some forty grand. 3 weeks for every year he worked, eight weeks in lieu of notice (cuz we ALL know proper notice hasn't been forthcoming of late right?) and the remainder of his vacation pay.

Dear Readers (all two of you), please pray to whatever God or Goddess you deem necessary that this whole thing is resolved for good very very very soon, and in our favour, if you please. Forty grand doesn't seem like a lot of money, but it will pay off every single one of our debts, keep us housed, clothed and fed for at least the next six months without Hubby having to work full time (and me having to work two full-time jobs), plus for the first time in 14 years of marriage, a little money to soak away for something: the kids' education (Peej is leaving for college in two years), a real honeymoon...SOMETHING other than living day to day wondering if we're going to have heat one day, decent food the next.

*sigh* Sometimes I wish I would wake up and this whole mess would be just a bad dream I could wake up from.

One of the scariest five minutes of my life

2009-01-25T18:34:00.003-05:00

I just have to have this written down, so every once in awhile, I can go back and remember. Because I have to. Because I don't want to forget.

I love my husband. Everyone knows this. What not everyone knows is that I think I would die myself should he expire before me. He and my children are literally the only reasons I get up in the morning. Every morning.

Yesterday morning, very early, about 4 a.m. I awoke to Hubby stumbling out of bed. He was heading to the bathroom and I made the big mistake of rolling over and going right back to sleep. What seemed a long time later (but was in fact only a few seconds), there was a resounding crash. I launched myself out of bed, more startled at that point than anything else. My first words were "jaysus krist", and then "Babe, you okay?"...

...silence...

"Babe?" I got out of bed, and sauntered over to the bathroom door. "Babe? Aw, you sick?"

...more silence...

I tried to very gently open the door, so as to not embarass him should the poor man be 'praying to the Porcelain God', so to speak. He'd only had a couple beers when he came home, so I was pretty sure he wasn't drunk, but hey, you never know. As I pushed on the door, my first thought was 'oh okay, he's locked the door', but then it dawned on me, the doorknob had turned. The door wasn't locked but the door was not moving.

Panic.

"Babe....BABE!!!...JIM-MY!!!

At that moment my first thought was 'PLEASE GODS don't take him from me now', and then my next thought was, 'get your fucking ass into your robe and call 911 or you're going to lose him!!'

I ran to my bedroom door, threw on my robe, and ran right back to the bathroom door, gently pushing on the door to try to either dislodge Jim from the door (he'd passed out at the entryway, effectively wedging the door closed with his body), or get my hand in the door enough to try and get a hold of him in order to dislodge him from the door.

This honestly must have taken all of three or four minutes, tops, but it felt like a fucking YEAR. I had really almost decided to just run for the phone when Jim finally came to.

It was right after he moaned and I felt the door give way to my pushing that I realized I hadn't taken a breath in a very long time. I actually felt dizzy, but whether it was from relief or lack of oxygen I can't be sure. I opened the door and he was very gingerly hurling himself up off the floor and onto the toilet.

He stayed there for a good twenty minutes and I hovered by the door the whole time. Long story sho...well, okay long story made LONGER *sigh*, he thinks the reason he passed out was because he wasn't feeling well to begin with (I still say it was food poisoning from food he ate the day before) and had gotten up too quickly.

Throughout this whole ordeal, my main thought was "what if he doesn't make it? What if we lose him...what if *I* lose him?"

Needless to say, my thoughts on everything changed in those few moments. I will be rethinking my life as I know it. I do not want to regret not doing, not sharing, not being. Life is too short.

And once again, my thoughts are getting jumbled and I'm no longer making sense to myself, and I suspect, to anyone reading this.

Jim's okay. I'm okay. The kids are okay. I'm going to see to it that it stays that way. Period.

the big '10'

2009-01-18T09:50:00.002-05:00

Happy Birthday to my beautiful daughter, who we will refer to in this blog as the B-grrl, The Bear, or just plain 'B'.

I cannot believe that it's been 10 years since she was born. Genetically, she was never supposed to exist, and here we are 10 years later, and she is the brightest star in our sky, the happiest little girl that ever graced our lives. We love you, sweet girl. May all your birthdays be bright and happy and cradled in the Goddess' devoted arms!

THANK THE GODS!!!

2009-01-15T17:32:00.002-05:00

Well the verdict is in... Hubby got his pogey the other day and at the very least we should be somewhat most of the way out of the ginormous financial hole. He will get almost 3/4 of his salary through EI. *BIG sigh of relieft* Between that, Pizza Squared, and me working two jobs (at least for the foreseeable future), we will be just fine.

And now I hear through the grapevine that Z*m*x might be taken over, and Hubby will be back to work there in 13 weeks... or at least they'll call him back. Don't know if all of this that has happened hasn't soured him just enough that he wouldn't say screw you cockroach and go on to something else, severance or no.

Well, that's the story for now.

I shouldn't open my big mouth...

2009-01-13T15:38:00.002-05:00

Not only did I NOT get to sleep in yesterday, but I had to go into work because FIVE, count 'em FIVE people failed to show up for work yesterday morning. So on my paid day off, I dragged my sick ass into work for eight hours. *sigh*

The upside to this, is now I have a long weekend off, as the boss gave me Friday off in lieu of Monday. *bounce bounce bounce*

Still sick, but gradually feeling better. Got some actual sleep last night that didn't involve snoring and waking myself up all pasty-mouthed and crack-lipped.

Okies, that's it for now. Off to spend a few minutes alone with the Hubby before the kids get home :)

Still sick, still tired...

2009-01-11T15:48:00.002-05:00

Going into town tomorrow sometime to sign papers for the new job... can't wait!!! For four to six weeks I won't be getting up at no 4:45!! 6:30/7:00 at the earliest :) :) That makes me a happy girl :)

Nothing else new... but I'm determined to keep this up, even if I have virtually nothing to say!!

'Snot what you think...or maybe it is...

2009-01-10T17:46:00.002-05:00

Still. sick. ugh.

That's the bad news. The good news is, is I get a paid day off on Monday for working New Year's Day. If I can get this sinus thing under control, I should be in fine form to work the next four days after that.

Let's hope, shall we?

Bring on the huge-fucking-Q. Only no Unisom this time. I think they counter-acted one another and I spent the better part of last night waking myself up with snoring. And really, the mouth-breathing and getting pasty-tongued and crack-lipped is getting a little old after only slightly more than 24 hours.

I call BULLSHIT! Time for this cold to take a flying leap off a very short pier!

And tired always followed sick...

2009-01-09T16:22:00.002-05:00

I'm a little rusty on my patron Gods/Goddesses... does anyone know the patron/ess of sinus colds? Cuz if you do, I'd like you to tell me, so I can summon this raging beeotch and tell Him/Her what-for. I've watched everyone around me for the past two months get this horrid cold/flu/idiot-stick bug and I've remained sick-free. Until today. Fawck. So me, being the medicine-phobe that I am, is seriously considering doping myself up with huge-fucking-Q (NyQuil in case you're not a Dennis Leary fan) and possibly a Unisom to help me sleep through the night. I have to work all weekend and contrary to popular belief, sneezing and snobbering and trying to pull everyone else into my misery with me is NOT the best way to say "Welcome to T.H." :)

Quick update:

Yes, I was offline, off-phone for about three days. All be taken care of. J and I are struggling, but we WILL pull through thanks in a very big part to certain family members who refused to let us be stubborn.

Other than that, nothing much has changed.

Off to watch the season finale of Smallville season 4... Peej got Season Five last night *SQUEEEEAL*

This waiting sucks...

2009-01-04T18:06:00.002-05:00

Knowing that a final decision from the Zoo could change our lives drastically one way or the other is literally killing me. If they go one way, our prayers are answered. Even a week's pay for every year Hubby's been there would mean all our bills will be paid off and we can start afresh. If it goes the other way...well we're fucked. Plain and simple. Hubby's got NO experience anywhere else. He's been doing this almost half his life and more than 3/4 of his adult life. He has all these plans to pursue truck driving or maybe go back to school to learn another profession, and you know, I'd stand behind him 100% if it wasn't for the fact that we're STONE BROKE. In reality, we've been stone broke since day one of our marriage, but to be perfectly honest, it really hasn't mattered to much to me until now. I'm taking a second job at the end of the month, but will it really help? Hubby's EI will kick in at the end of the month or the beginning of February at the latest. Will we be able to dig ourselves out of this hole?

I honestly don't know, and I'm scared. Truly scared.

Drowning in a sea of WHAT NEXT?!!!

2009-01-03T16:17:00.003-05:00

Yes, it's me, I'm back. In black. Well navy actually.... well you get the point.

I said last time that I would try harder to blog more regularly and well, that fell through like a led zeppelin, obviously. So much has gone on in the past few months, and indeed, in the past few weeks, that I haven't thought much about this blog, but maybe this is the time when I should, eh?

Hubby was laid off exactly one week before Christmas. He's working full time right now, being paid under the table at the local Pizza Squared joint. It's good money, but it also means that we never see him. I work early morning to early afternoon, and he works early afternoon to late evening, sometimes early morning. *sigh* As if we haven't done this enough in our lives.

Okay, enough with the pity party. My life has been far from uninteresting. Starting the end of the month I'll be taking on a second job (cuz ya know, I just have WAY too much time on my hands *eye roll*) setting up a new GT Boutique store here in town (NOT the actual name, but those of you who know the chain, know what I'm talking about). Should be fun at any rate. And it pays decent. And there's an opportunity for it to become full time, and therefore, it's finally out of the food industry I go. Forever. Cuz ya know, sometimes enough's enough.

The kids are doing well. Peej got his first job working at a local farm equipment depot right around the corner from us. A bi-weekly paycheque has put a real grin on that gorgeous kid's face, lemme tell you. He's going to New York City with his band in the spring and he's proud as a peacock to be able to say that he can pay his own way. Chrisco is still struggling with school but with the help of Nana and Papa and Mrs. Z (my old spanish teacher!) I think he will end grade seven with a bang. B-grrl of course, is growing by the nanosecond. She's radiant, funny and SNOTTY. I can't begin to tell you that she's nearly 10...going on 30. I've already seen the evidence that she's a) boy crazy b) totally full of herself and c) a joy to have in my life, regardless.

Okies, I'm getting a little scrambled in my thoughts, so I'm going to close this for now and hopefully I won't forget this blog again any time soon. There's going to be lots of changes and hopefully I will have the energy and the inclination to document it.

I don't promise it will be witty, funny, or even remotely interesting, but it will be my life from my perspective and I will do my best. Don't abandon me now, dear followers!

It's me again, Margaret

2008-09-19T09:17:00.002-04:00

Okay...

Now that I've had a few days to just be me, I'm back to let you know what's going on (in the vaguest terms I can muster).

Due to several factors, my health being factor One, I left my job at the dealership. I hadn't planned on leaving until the end of the month, but upon submitting my two-week notice, the GM basically said 'no time like the present'. I was a little shocked and more than a little upset for the first day. I had actually told myself that I wasn't going to do anything for a little while, until reality kicked in and I realized I need a job pronto. So I went out yesterday and got one. Minimum wage, yes. Something I've done before (when Chrisco was a baby, YIKES), yes. But the upside is, is no matter what shift I'm eventually on, I will be home and in the same town all the time as my kids and my husband, who for the last three and a half years have had to put up with the fact that I'm never home and hardly ever able to spend time with them.

So it's back to reality for me... just not till Monday morning.

peek

2008-09-10T08:33:00.002-04:00

Yes I'm here. Yes I'm alive. No, I haven't felt like truly blogging in a very long time. so, in bullet-point mode, here's what's happened since July of last year:

~started new career
~kids grew up (grades 4, 7 and 10 this year!!)
~hubby still working for the Z-place
~my weight is still a great bone of contention for me
~new career may not work out

meh, I lead a boring life, so sue me.

My current fave song

2007-06-15T21:45:00.000-04:00

Flathead Lyrics

Ahh, the beautiousness that is Flathead:

Here we go again...

2007-05-10T07:49:00.000-04:00

GO SENS GO!!!

Let's hunt some BUFFALO!!

Blessed Beltane!!

2007-05-01T21:08:00.000-04:00

I know I know I KNOW!! Bad blogger! Baaaaaaad bloggerrrrr!!! Chalk it up to craziness at work (I know I know, when is it NOT crazy at work?), lack of time in the evenings and CRACKBOOK...hehe....

Hope everyone has a wonderful Beltane night (as for me I don't have a hubby to cuddle up to tonight... *this* will have to do *GIGGLE*... oh come ON, don't act shocked!!)

Love to all!

/|\

Edited to add: ROFLMAO, just goes to show you how much I can pay attention after a long day of work. I didn't notice the name of the website I took that link from until I clicked on it!! *deep blush*

BOOK! BOOK! BOOK!! TEDICUS!!! BOOK!!!

2007-04-06T09:52:00.000-04:00

http://gospelpagan.wordpress.com/2007/04/02/review-magdalen-rising/

Could this be another "Druids"?!!!

So you want to get into a theological debate with me, eh? Hmmmm...

2007-04-02T20:56:00.000-04:00

You know the Bible 92%!

Wow! You are awesome! You are a true Biblical scholar, not just a hearer but a personal reader! The books, the characters, the events, the verses - you know it all! You are fantastic!

Ultimate Bible Quiz
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Movie Meme

2007-03-29T20:11:00.000-04:00

1. Name a movie that you have seen more than 10 times.

Oh dear... this could be bad... there are way too many of them to mention... Love Actually is definitely one of them... any of the three LOTR movies, The Last Unicorn, Top Gun, oh good grief, most of my collection I've seen at LEAST ten times!

2. Name a movie that you’ve seen multiple times in the theater.

I think I saw the latest Harry Potter flick three times in the theatre

3. Name an actor that would make you more inclined to see a movie.

Sandra Bullock or Angelina Jolie

4. Name an actor that would make you less likely to see a movie.

Will Farrell

5. Name a movie that you can and do quote from.

10 Things I Hate About You: "Remove head from sphincter, THEN drive!"

6. Name a movie musical that you know all of the lyrics to all of the songs.

Just ONE??? GADS!!! Um, okay, how about Sound of Music?

7. Name a movie that you have been known to sing along with.

See above

8. Name a movie that you would recommend everyone see.

Mr. Holland’s Opus.

9. Name a movie that you own.

Last count I had over 150 DVDs... my current favourite is my 25th anniversary edition of The Last Unicorn.

10. Name an actor that launched his/her entertainment career in another medium but who has surprised you with his/her acting chops.

Marshall Mathers (Eminem). I thought he was brilliant in 8 Mile.

11. Have you ever seen a movie in a drive-in? If so, what?

I've seen a few. When I was a little girl I saw The Creature from the Black Lagoon and about 10 years ago my former best friend took me to see.... oh crap, I don't remember what the movie was! All I remember is that the OTHER screen was playing Independence Day.

12. Ever made out in a movie?

And HOW!!!! Will Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade ever hold that power again?! LOL!

13. Name a movie that you keep meaning to see but just haven’t yet gotten around to it.

Premonition

14. Ever walked out of a movie?

Only once. It was a Michael J. Fox flick, as I recall...Bright Lights Big City.

15. Name a movie that made you cry in the theater.

LOL only every single one, at one point or another. I'm such a sap!

16. Popcorn?

Yes, with extra butter!!!

17. How often do you go to the movies (as opposed to renting them or watching them at home)?

I only get to an actual theatre once or twice a year.

18. What’s the last movie you saw in the theater?

The Prestige.

19. What’s your favorite/preferred genre of movie?

Comedy.

20. What’s the first movie you remember seeing in the theater?

Annie in 1982. My Aunt took me across the US border to see it in Int'l Falls when I was 10.

21. What movie do you wish you had never seen?

I honestly can't answer this one... oh wait, yes I can: the 80's version of Salem's Lot. It was so far from good, I fell asleep in the middle of it.

22. What is the weirdest movie you enjoyed?

Being John Malkovich. Hubby even says (and I quote) "It was coooool. It was a GOOD weird movie!"

23. What is the scariest movie you’ve seen?

Probably either Pet Sematary or Jaws.

24. What is the funniest movie you’ve seen?

Love Actually. Never laughed so hard in my life.

Venting blog

2007-03-06T21:05:00.000-05:00

I've created a new blog to vent where I can't here...if you would like the addy, please email me and I will give it to you. Only a select few will get this address.

raevyn[at]iamawitch[dot]com

Even little white lies hurt...

2007-02-11T16:32:00.000-05:00

"Emotion's waves, they ebb and flow, but I avoid their undertow."

Usually.

But not today.

Top 10 Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian by Heidi Lore

2007-02-11T10:01:00.000-05:00

10 - You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, but feel outraged when someone denies the existence of yours.

9 - You feel insulted and "dehumanized" when scientists say that people evolved from other life forms, but you have no problem with the Biblical claim that we were created from dirt.

8 - You laugh at polytheists, but you have no problem believing in a Triune God.

7 - Your face turns purple when you hear of the "atrocities" attributed to Allah, but you don't even flinch when hearing about how God/Jehovah slaughtered all the babies of Egypt in "Exodus" and ordered the elimination of entire ethnic groups in "Joshua" including women, children, and trees!

6 - You laugh at Hindu beliefs that deify humans, and Greek claims about gods sleeping with women, but you have no problem believing that the Holy Spirit impregnated Mary, who then gave birth to a man-god who got killed, came back to life and then ascended into the sky.

5 - You are willing to spend your life looking for little loopholes in the scientifically established age of Earth (few billion years), but you find nothing wrong with believing dates recorded by Bronze Age tribesmen sitting in their tents and guessing that Earth is a few generations old.

4 - You believe that the entire population of this planet with the exception of those who share your beliefs -- though excluding those in all rival sects - will spend Eternity in an infinite Hell of Suffering. And yet consider your religion the most "tolerant" and "loving."

3 - While modern science, history, geology, biology, and physics have failed to convince you otherwise, some idiot rolling around on the floor speaking in "tongues" may be all the evidence you need to "prove" Christianity.

2 - You define 0.01% as a "high success rate" when it comes to answered prayers. You consider that to be evidence that prayer works. And you think that the remaining 99.99% FAILURE was simply the will of God.

1 - You actually know a lot less than many atheists and agnostics do about the Bible, Christianity, and church history - but still call yourself a Christian.

A 'fire' in our brains...or maybe we're just fried...heh.

2007-02-03T21:27:00.000-05:00

What does one say when a Druidess and a Wiccan get together for a ritual and our south corner houses an oil tank???

Hail and KABOOM!!

Heh.

Right then, as you were :-P

How well do you know me? Take the test!

2007-02-01T20:51:00.000-05:00

Create your own Friend Quiz here

Worried

2007-01-31T07:40:00.000-05:00

My mother in law is on medication for the rest of her life after surviving Hodgkin's disease twenty-some-odd years ago. My father in law is also on medication for the rest of his life after surviving prostate cancer just last year. My friend J is currently battling for his life with renal cell carcinoma that has metastisized (sp?) into his lungs, stomach and now his brain.

Is it alarmist of me to be concerned about my hubby after spending ALL NIGHT up with him, coughing and clearing his throat, which he says is 'just a tickle'?!!

My new toy!

2007-01-26T07:45:00.000-05:00

Yes, Elad, I KNOW I still haven't blogged about Saturday night... I'm getting a Round Tuit!! LOL!!!

In the meantime, check out my new baby! My old one finally died a horrible, battery-choking death the other day and I've wanted one of these since they came out on the market!!

My new Baby.

Alphabet Meme

2007-01-17T20:03:00.000-05:00

A- Available or single? No. Married.
B- Best Friend? Ange
C- Cake or Pie? Pie. Cake if it's chocolate, pie if it's pecan
D- Drink of Choice? Black Cherry Vanilla Diet Coke
E- Essential Item? My computer, my ipod Shuffle.
F- Favorite Color? Purple
G- Gummi Bears or Worms? I don't eat either.
H- Hometown? Halifax, Nova Scotia
I- Indulgence? Anything chocolate
J- January or February? January...lots of birthdays!
K- Kids and names? 3...Peej, Chrisco and The Bear
L- Life is incomplete without? Hubby.
M- Marriage Date? 7/22/95
N- Number of Siblings? One younger brother
O- Oranges or apples? I like both.
P- Phobias/Fears? Fear of heights, elevators, spiders
Q- Favorite Quote? Remove head from sphincter, THEN drive!
R- Reason to Smile? Knowing I have a great family.
S- Season? Summer.
T- Tag three people! Ange, Tedward and...*shrugs*... oh! Tanya!
U- Unknown Fact About Me? I was hit by a car at age five.
V- Vegetable you hate? Beets, Turnips, Rutabegas
W- Worst habit? Interrupting people.
X- X-Rays you’ve had? Nope. Tonnes...on knees, chest, hips, breasts, shoulders
Y- Your favorite food? Seafood.
Z- Zodiac? Cancer.

Green Christmas in the Valley

2006-12-24T16:32:00.000-05:00

T'was the Night before Christmas
And the whole lawn is green
And to the Bear I said
This is one freaking weird scene

There's not a lick of snow
To reflect the stars above
But what is the same this year
Is the abundance of Love

The light in my childrens eyes
As they wait for Santa to come
Is music to my heart
Though it may sound trivial to some

So even though there's no snow this Eve
And the weather is warm
It's still a Merry Christmas
Here on the Beck farm

(pfft okay, I never said I was a GOOD poet LOL)

Merry Merry and Happy Happy to all.

New Year Memeage

2006-12-23T06:35:00.000-05:00

In 2007…

1. Will you be looking for a new job? I hope not.
2. Will you be looking for a new relationship? NO!
3. New house? No, but I'm hoping to arrange new paint and maybe starting rent-to-own of our current place.
4. What will you do different in 07? Exercise more, eat less bad food. Get in better shape, maybe join Kung Fu
5. New Years resolution? I try not to make them, because I always break them.
6. What will you not be doing in 07? Sitting around on my ass doing nothing.
7. Any trips planned? I was hoping to take the whole family to Fest this year, but Peej's grade 8 trip to Toronto is that week, so that's out.
8. Wedding plans? Nope, already married, '07 will see Hubby and I celebrate a dozen years of marriage.
9. Major thing on your calendar? Nothing yet, but there are several things I hope to be on the horizon
10. What can’t you wait for? SPRING!
11. What would you like to see happen different? I'd like to be able to get away for a week with Hubby. We have yet to have a honeymoon.
12. What about yourself will you be changing? My eating habits.
13. What happened in 06 that you didn’t think would ever happen? I kept my job.
14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about? I hope so. I try to be nice all the time.
15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 06? Yes - especially if I lose enough weight to get into some nice clothes!
16. Will you start or quit drinking? Neither
17. Will you better your relationship with your family? I think my relationships are doing well, with the exception of a few people, but it is nothing I can (or plan to) control.
18. Will you do charity work? I don't know.
19. Will you go to bars? I'd like to. I haven't been dancing in ages! Wyrd, maybe you can help me with that... 80's night at Barrymore's while you're here???
20. Will you be nice to people you don’t know? I'm always nice to people...until they piss me off.
21. Do you expect 07 to be a good year for you? I certainly hope so.
22. How much did you change from this time last year till now? Quite a bit I think. I've grown as a manager, as a person and shrunk as a body :)
23. Do you plan on having a child? *gasp* nope! Already gots me three!!
24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now? I'm sure I will be. I'd like to make new ones as well.
25. Major lifestyle changes? Eating better, exercising regularly.
26. Will you be moving? Good Gods, I hope not!
27. What will you make sure doesn’t happen in 07 that happened in 06? Big Rae, ugly pants, depressed Rae
28. What are your New Years Eve plans? We're having a party - it may end up being just me and Hubby, but we will still party
29. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight? Yes. Loki. Just kidding, Collar... just kidding of course, it will be Hubby.
30. One wish for 07? No hardships for my family.

Yuletide Greetings

2006-12-22T21:06:00.000-05:00

All hail the returning Sun!!

A very blessèd Holiday season to you all, however you celebrate it!

Lots to post about, not enough time

2006-12-21T07:18:00.000-05:00

Today is day one of my SIX DAYS OFF for the holidays.

In point form, here's what's going on:

Today: Christmas play for Chrisco, training with Chrisco and Peej at Kung Fu, laundry
Tomorrow: Memorial Service for Miss Mac (will post more about that today or tomorrow), laundry, Yule celebration at home
Saturday: Kung-Fu taxi in the morning PARTY with friends and family for the rest of the day!
Sunday: lol recover from Saturday, put out gifts for..
Monday: Christmas at home, at Mom's and at In-Laws!!
Tuesday: Absolutely butt-fucking-NUFFIN all day!!!

Have a wonderful Holiday, however it is that you celebrate it!

Early morning memeage

2006-12-13T07:20:00.000-05:00

Yoinked from Ted's blog.

Apparently, if you’ve seen more than 85 out of 174, you have no life. Or perhaps like me, you just enjoy movies.

I managed to score , 104 BTW…

( ) Nacho Libre
(x) Grease
(x) Grease 2
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2
( ) Orange County
(x) The Green Mile
(x) Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
(x) Airplane!
( ) Red Eye
(x) Stick It
(x) She’s the Man
(x) 8 Mile
(x) The Princess Bride
( ) SNL’s The Best of Will Ferrell
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Fun With Dick and Jane
(x) Saw
( ) Saw II
(x) White Noise
(x) White Oleander
( ) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Cinderella Man
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
( ) Robots
(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(x)King Kong (2005)
(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child’s Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) 10 Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Slevin
(x) Ocean’s Eleven
(x) Ocean’s Twelve
( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) Superstar
(x) Ice Age
( ) Ice age 2 The Meltdown -
(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss’ Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) Monsters Inc.
( ) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She’s All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
(x) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
(x) X-Men
(x) X-Men 2
(x) X-Men 3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
( ) K-Pax
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old-virgin
( ) The Hills Have Eyes
(x) The Sandlot
( ) The Sandlot 2
( ) Queen of the Damned

Grand Total: 104

Okay, so maybe I'm not as much of a movie buff as I thought...

Errrrm, Tedward.....???

2006-12-09T09:07:00.000-05:00

You must think I'm a horrible friend, because I haven't commented on your blog in MONTHS, it seems...

Well, dear friend, I have an excuse: every time I try to post a comment, I get this page:

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If you are behind a Web proxy or corporate firewall, the proxy must conform to the HTTP specification with respect to proxy servers. Contact your network administrator if the trouble persists, or bypass the proxy and connect directly if possible.
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If you still need assistance, please contact herr_ubergeek at sympatico.ca.

Is that bad???

Holiday Meme thingy

2006-12-03T20:29:00.000-05:00

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate?
Both....though not at the same time...

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just set them under the tree?
Mostly wrapped...big things like bikes or other large objects are set under (or near) tree.

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white?
Right now they're coloured, but I used to have the white icicle lights on my old place.

4. Do you hang mistletoe?
No, I dont', but I would if I had some. I loves me some Hubby smooches.

5. When do you put up your decorations?
It depends on my mood and my time constraints...I currently have decorations set out but the tree will have to wait till next weekend.

6. What is your favorite holiday dish?
We have a tradition of having one of the following desserts: either homemade pan cherry cheescake or pineapple delight, so I'd have to say that...or my stuffing :)

7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child?
The year I got my flute.

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa?
I remember very vividly...I was 12 (catholic and naive) and I found out at the same time that the Easter Bunny was Mom and Dad, too.

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve?
Yes, it was a tradition in my family and it's usually pyjamas to sleep in on Christmas Eve.

10. What kind of decorations are on your Christmas Tree?
It's mostly decorations collected over the 34 years I have been alive. Some were donated from my family tree, and some either the kids made or I've picked up over the years.

11. Snow! Love it or Dread?
Hate snow....if it didn't make Christmas homey and warm and bright, I'd say f*ck snow altogether, but Christmas snow is good. Just go away by New Years LOL

12. Can you ice skate?
I have not ice skated since childhood. I think I'd give myself shin splints and heel spurs just putting the damned things on. LOL.

13. Do you remember your favorite gift?
See question 7.

14. What's the most important thing about the Holidays for you?
Family.

15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert?
See question 6.

16 What is your favorite holiday tradition?
Everyone getting together Xmas morning for homemade 'Egg McMuffins' at my parents' place.

17. What tops your tree?
A crocheted angel that my mother in law made for us a few years ago.

18. What is your favourite holiday book?
I'd have to say "T'was the Night Before Christmas"

19. What is your favorite Christmas Song?
Carol of the Bells and The Little Drummer Boy

20. Candy Canes! Yuck or Yummy?
I love candy canes...especially the Crush ones that come in Grape and Orange!!

21. What is your favourite Holiday movie?
OMG this is a HARRRRD one. I've been watching the Charlie Brown Christmas special every year for as long as I can remember, and I still love watching it, but believe it or not, my favourite holiday film is "Love, Actually". It's brilliant.

Babble...

2006-12-02T22:13:00.000-05:00

Picture this:

Encino Man...

"Hey.... hey, where's Dave?"

Stoney, pointing: "Dancin'..."

Yep that's me.

Carolan's good, tree pretty.

It was only for a little while today, but...

2006-12-02T20:44:00.000-05:00

Anyone else ever feel like this?

Boy oh boy, Tatsuya, have you got it right!!

Anyone got a new book for me to read???

2006-11-26T08:36:00.001-05:00

What Kind of Reader Are You? Your Result: Dedicated Reader You are always trying to find the time to get back to your book. You are convinced that the world would be a much better place if only everyone read more.
Literate Good Citizen
Obsessive-Compulsive Bookworm
Book Snob
Fad Reader
Non-Reader
What Kind of Reader Are You? Create Your Own Quiz

10 years

2006-11-14T08:06:00.000-05:00

I've told very few people this story, but seeing as how it is the 10th anniversary today of this event, I decided it was time to purge this from my system and move on with my life, knowing that I have made peace with myself.

*note* if you don't want to hear the ins and outs of my body, do not read on.*

10 years ago, I was a newlywed still, with a seven-month old son and a 3.5 year old son. After 10 some-odd years of having breasts shaped like bananas, I finally decided to approach my family doctor about having a breast reduction. See, I wasn't terribly concerned about their size, it was their shape. Yep...banana boobs are me (or, at least, then, WERE me). I spent four gruelling month trying not to suffocate my poor middle son, breastfeeding was a chore. I had to hold Chrisco with one hand and my breast up with the other, so as to not smother my poor son. After 10 years of misshapen hell, I bit the bullet and talked to my doctor. I explained that I'd been having back pain with the heaviness (and misshapenness) and wanted to know what I could do about it. She almost immediately booked me for a consultation with a plastic surgeon. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not a person who would go through this just for the sake of getting 'perkier' breasts. I spent most of my early teen years (and subsequently, my later teen years) in bras that were either too big or didn't support properly, so in the end, I NEEDED this 'alteration'. Not wanted...NEEDED. When one's nipples brust against the BOTTOM of the ribcage sans brassiere, you know you need something done!

Anywho, that was in September of 1996. I was scheduled for surgery in mid-October. I have to admit, I was nervous at the final consultation. They took my blood, did all the normal tests, and asked me all sorts of questions. Had I ever had surgery before (I hadn't, except for exploratory), how many times had I been pregnant (twice) and was there any possibility that I could be pregnant right now (I answer no, because at the time, I honestly didn't think so... continue reading to see how wrong I was *sigh*)

So in I went. Three and a half hours later, I woke up with...ta da!! Perfect, perky 38B boobies (I went in with 42DD's). B's were to be only temporary though, as two years later, I got pregnant with The Bear and up they went to (still perky!) C's, but hey, I could live with that!! After about a year and a half, my scars were a 'part' of me, I didn't even notice them anymore (and neither did Hubby!). Scars of a different nature, however, haunted me for years after.

About two weeks after the surgery, I started sensing that something was amiss. Something was VERY wrong. Where was my period? I should have gotten it about 10 days after surgery, and because of the Pill, I was regular like clockwork. After being pregnant twice and knowing almost immediately I was pregnant, I decided to ask my family doctor (upon seeing her for a post-op checkup) if she would book me for a pregnancy test.

48 hours later, I got my answer. I was pregnant, and from what the doctor could see, I was about 7 weeks at that point. I've never cried so hard in my life. In my surgery, they used some very powerful pain killers when I woke up to keep me in a very fuzzy state for the first 12 or 18 hours after. I knew that a baby just developing didn't stand a chance. I had my doctor book me in to see a specialist in the other A-town, where he performed an ultrasound. I know doctors are supposed to be impartial (something about transference or some such crap), but looking at this doctor, looking at the ultrasound of my budding uterus, I knew. I knew it was bad. My then 11-week old fetus (yes, this booking took FOUR weeks...four weeks of waiting and worrying) wasn't developing properly. He (by all accounts, the doctor figured that it was a male) had no legs, no arms and from what he could see, possibly no brain...a great gaping whole in the side of his head confirmed that his skull bones had only formed on 25% of his head. They could see a heartbeat, but the doctor told me that it was almost a sureity that he wouldn't survive past the second trimester. I was devastated, and thought I couldn't feel any worse when he gave me that diagnosis. Boy was I wrong.

Doc scheduled me for what he called a T.A.: Therapeutic Abortion. Gods, even now, I look at those words and cringe. The next two and a half weeks went by in a sort of blur. I hardly ate, I never slept, and the worst of it was, I couldn't TELL anyone. I couldn't deal with the fact that I was doing something I had always been at least in part opposed to. The logical part of my brain was saying "don't feel guilty, there's nothing you could have done to prevent this", while the other part of my brain was saying "you COULD have prevented this by not being a doughhead and saying 'yes, there WAS a possibility you could be pregnant, albeit a SMALL one'"

I remember getting in the car in the morning (my D&C was for 8:00 a.m), and I remember driving into the hospital parking lot. I don't remember the 25 minute drive there. I was a zombie after not sleeping for so long. My sons were both missing their Mommy, who'd turned into this unfeeling, uncaring thing. Now, any of you who know me in real life know that that kind of woman is NOT who I am. For 7 weeks, I was an automaton. I didn't want to hold my youngest son, I virtually ignored my oldest, and my Hubby and I hadn't made love since before my surgery. I was a broken girl, and I didn't know how I could even begin to put myself back together.

As they prepped me for surgery, I remember the nurse placing the anaestetic mask over my nose and mouth and asking me to breathe deeply. My last conscious act was to quickly remove the mask and ask the nurse to "please say good bye to him for me". I remember her smiling kindly (and kind of sadly) and nodding, saying that she would. I was crying as I went under.

I was crying as I came to, in a small, cold hospital room. As soon as I was conscious of my surroundings, I started to sob, knowing that it was all over, but my pain was just beginning. How was I going to tell my family? How was I going to tell my friends? I just didn't know.

Hubby came into the room, and maddeningly, tried to act as if we hadn't just removed baby #3 from my womb and (I thought) ruined any chance of having another child. It took a full three months after the T.A. for me to finally feel 'well' enough to have sex again, something that Hubby couldn't understand, no matter how hard I tried to explain to him. I just couldn't deal with it. I never went for counselling. I'd only told a very few people (none of my immediate family were amongst these chosen few) about what had happened, and this festered in the back of my mind and in the pit of my heart for a long time.

Oddly enough, the day I finally came to terms with losing JJ (his name would have been Jason Jeremy, after my deceased twin brothers RIP January 1971) when I found out that the 20 week old fetus I was carrying in September 1998 was, in fact, a GIRL. A genetic 'misfire', to be sure, as the last girl child to be born in Hubby's family was born in 1901!!

And when The Bear came into this world, I knew that JJ was just The Bear in spirit. She wasn't yet ready to be born (and darn it, she didn't want to be born a BOY!) and I knew that everything happens for a reason. I still mourn my little JJ, but I also know that if he hadn't given up his place in the world, The Bear would never have been born. I thank my Little One for her every day.

10 years ago, I lost a little boy, but I gained the chance to have a little girl. Rest with the angels, dearest JJ. Mommy loves you still and always.

RIP Curly

2006-11-10T19:41:00.000-05:00

You will be sorely missed.

*sob*

Seven Deadly Sins

2006-11-06T07:13:00.000-05:00

Well at least we know WHY I'm going to hell...I'm lazy and I'm greedy about my SLEEP!! Heh.

Greed:	High
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Very Low

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

Remember, remember the fifth of November...

2006-11-05T10:27:00.000-05:00

No better day to enjoy this brilliant film...

ROFLMAO!!!!

2006-11-03T20:30:00.000-05:00

Shamelessly yoinked from Kayakdave, cuz well, it's fucking hilarious!!

"Grandma Got Run Over by a Reindeer" Based on the performance by Elmo & Patsy
"Mad Max Got Pulled Over by a Hebrew" Parody by Spaff.com

Mad Max got pulled over by a Hebrew
Speeding down the coast on Thursday night
You can say that Mel's an alcoholic
But I think he was blitzed on Vegemite

He'd been drinking too much Foster's
And his Lexus felt so nice
He did 80 miles an hour
90 times as fast as "Passion of the Christ"

Cops claim Mel got anti-Jewish
But they say the final straw
Was his threat of circumcision
And the shout-out to his fans in Hezbollah

Mad Max got pulled over by a Hebrew
Flying down my street completely drunk
You can say that Mel's an anti-Semite
But the cops found kosher vodka in his trunk

Before they slapped the cuffs on Melvin
The po-lice said, "Would you please
Sign this DUI citation
And then these 'Lethal Weapon' DVDs?"

Things got worse down at the station
They said Mel's a sexist jerk
He called a lady "sugar hooters"
Hey Mel, I've tried that line; it doesn't work
(Doesn't work!)

Mad Max got pulled over by a Hebrew
Racing through my hood in Malibu
You can say that Mel was acting psycho
He was just rehearsing scenes from "Braveheart II"

After threats of urination
He made bail and got to go
What a shame he smashed that pay phone
It's the same one that they seized from Russell Crowe

I've warned all my Jewish neighbors
Better watch your Yiddish butts
They should never give a license
To a guy who Charlie Manson thinks is nuts

Mad Max got pulled over by a Hebrew
Speeding down my sidewalk full of booze
You can say that Mel's an anti-Semite
But that's not true; he merely hates the Jews

(Sing it with us, Melvin!)
Mad Max got pulled over by a Hebrew
Speeding down my sidewalk full of booze
You can say that Mel's an anti-Semite
But that's not true; he merely hates the Jews

Loki the dumbass.

2006-11-03T20:08:00.002-05:00

Dog finds ball.

Dog presents ball to boy.

Boy throws ball.

Dog chases ball.

Dog slams into wall.

*sigh*

Blessèd Samhuinn

2006-10-31T07:27:00.000-05:00

We honour our Ancestors. We honour our Noble Dead. We honour Ourselves.

We honour our Mother, who, tonight, is the Carrion Queen, the Lady of the Night, Goddess of Ravens.

Hail! Morrighan!! Blessèd be!

Things you can only learn from TV and movies!!

2006-10-27T07:38:00.000-04:00

Shamelessly yoinked from A Witch's Tale because I couldn't stop laughing the longer I read it!!

#If staying in a haunted house, women should investigate any strange noises wearing their most revealing underwear.

# If being chased through town, you can usually take cover in a passing St Patrick's Day parade - at any time of the year.

(Sally's addendum: Mardi Gras is also perpetual, but there's a 1000% chance you will be discovered among the crowd in 40 seconds or less, regardless of distance.)

# All beds have special L-shaped top sheets that reach up to armpit level on a woman but only waist level on the man lying beside her.

# All grocery shopping bags contain at least one stick of French bread.

# It's easy for anyone to land a plane, providing there is someone in the control tower to talk you down.

# Once applied, lipstick will never rub off - even while scuba diving.

# The ventilation system of any building is a perfect hiding place. No one will ever think of looking for you in there and you can travel to any other part of the building without difficulty.

# You're likely to survive any battle in any war unless you make the mistake of showing someone a picture of your sweetheart back home.

# Should you wish to pass yourself off as a German officer, it will not be necessary to speak the language. A German accent will do.

# The Eiffel Tower can be seen from any window of any building in Paris.

# People of TV never finish their drinks.

# A man will show no pain while taking the most ferocious beating but will wince when a woman tries to clean his wounds.

# When paying for a taxi, never look at your wallet as you take out a note - just grab one at random and hand it over. It will always be the exact fare.

# If you lose a hand, it will cause the stump of your arm to grow by 15cm.

# Kitchens don't have light switches. When entering a kitchen at night, you should open the fridge door and use that light instead.

# During all police investigations, it will be necessary to visit a strip club at least once.

# Mothers routinely cook eggs, bacon and waffles for their family every morning, even though the husband and children never have time to eat them.

# Cars and trucks that crash will almost always burst into flames.

# Wearing a singlet or stripping to the waist can make a man invulnerable to bullets.

# A single match will be sufficient to light up a room the size of a football stadium.

# If a killer is lurking in your house, it's easy to find him. Just relax and run a bath - even if it's the middle of the afternoon.

# Medieval peasants had perfect teeth.

# Although in the 20th century it is possible to fire weapons at an object out of visual range, people of the 23rd century will have lost this technology.

# All single women have a cat.

# Any person waking from a nightmare will sit bolt upright and pant.

# Even when driving down a perfectly straight road, it is necessary to turn the steering wheel vigorously from left to right every few moments.

# One man shooting at 20 men has a better chance of killing them all than 20 men firing at one.

# Creepy music coming from a graveyard should always be closely investigated.

# If a phone line is broken, communication can be restored by frantically beating the cradle and saying, "Hello?, Hello?"

# Most people keep a scrapbook of newspaper cuttings - especially if any of their family or friends has died in a strange boating accident.

# It does not matter if you are heavily outnumbered in a fight involved martial arts - your enemies will wait patiently to attack you one by one by dancing around in a threatening manner until you have knocked out their predecessor.

# During a very emotional confrontation, instead of facing the person you are speaking to, it is customary to stand behind them and talk to their back.

# When you turn out the light to go to bed, everything in your room will still be clearly visible, just slightly bluish.

# Dogs always know who's bad and will naturally bark at them.

# Police departments give their officers personality tests to make sure they are deliberately assigned a partner who is their total opposite.

# When they are alone, all foreigners prefer to speak English to each other.

# Action heroes never face charges for manslaughter or criminal damage despite laying entire cities to waste.

# No matter how badly a spaceship is attacked, its internal gravity system is never damaged.

# If there is a deranged killer on the loose, this will coincide with a thunderstorm that has brought down all the power and phone lines in the vicinity.

# You can always find a chain saw whenever you're likely to need one.

# Rather than wasting bullets, megalomaniacs prefer to kill their arch-enemies using complicated machinery involving fuses, pulley systems, deadly gases, lasers and man eating sharks that will allow their captives at least 20 minutes to escape.

# Having a job of any kind will make all fathers forget their son's eighth birthday.

# Many musical instruments - especially wind instruments and accordions - can be played without moving the fingers.

# All bombs are fitted with electronic timing devices with large red readouts so you know exactly when they're going to go off.

# It is always possible to park directly outside the building you are visiting.

# Guns are like disposable razors - if you run out of bullets, just throw the gun away. You can always buy a new one.

# Make-up can safely be worn to bed without smudging.

# A detective can only solve a case once he has been suspended from duty.

# If you decide to start dancing in the street, everyone you bump into will know all the steps.

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

2006-10-26T07:51:00.001-04:00

they are a-comin'...

Hold on, it's going to be a bumpy ride.

Preference?

2006-10-25T09:22:00.000-04:00

I had THE funniest conversation with the Hubby this morning. On his favourite radio station they were announcing there was a 'red alert' (what they call an almost certainty that a particular band will tour and come to O-town) that Genesis was going to come to town on tour. I casually mentioned that I'd "give my left boob to see Genesis in concert". My wonderful hubby, ever the smartass, put on this completely adorable puppy face and said "aw, not the left one, that's my favourite!"

As Snakechica would say: "GA-YOINK!"

ROFLMAO!!

The NEW 7 wonders!!

2006-10-19T17:22:00.001-04:00

Check it out! Go here and vote for your seven!!

The things you find when you houseclean!

2006-10-17T07:48:00.000-04:00

I spent close to 12 hours on Sunday. Cleaning. Everything. In. My. House.

12 loads of laundry, all three rooms cleaned and vaccummed, kitchen cleaned, dishes done, dishwasher ran, unloaded, reloaded and ran again, carpets febreezed...

Amongst all this cleaning, I found my Fairy Ring Oracle. Last night, before bed, I brought it out to see what kind of energies it would emit... as I slid the case out of the box, two pieces of something else fell out and I squealed with delight as two bumperstickers fell open. I have had them over three years and had completely forgotten about them!

Yay!! they're going on my car this week!!

Yes, it's a PURPLE panda...wanna make something of it??

2006-10-16T22:42:00.000-04:00

I'm unique!

2006-10-14T12:44:00.000-04:00

Well good, at least I know that I can't be cloned! heh.

HowManyOfMe.com

There are:
0
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

testing

2006-10-13T14:59:00.000-04:00

does this work?

ew

2006-10-11T19:58:00.000-04:00

Vile, putrid, filthy, gross, icky, yucky, EWWWWWWWW.

These meds are giving me the fluffies from HEL!!

ON NOTICE!!!

2006-10-11T08:59:00.000-04:00

Go here to make your own!

Figgers...

2006-10-09T13:14:00.000-04:00

Not only do I have a UTI, I have a KIDNEY infection...

And the meds given to me to combat said infection is making me nauseous, dizzy and out and out BLECH...

On Thanksgiving..

That I'M hosting.

FUCK.

Oh Goddess! I'm dying!! ROFLMAO!!

2006-10-07T10:09:00.000-04:00

I've seen this done on Just for Laughs. He's funny as HEL!!!

Just watch it. Just. watch. it.!!!!

Saturday morning silliness

2006-10-07T10:05:00.000-04:00

If I was born in 2893 (as *insert real name here*)

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Reunn Hana

And You Would Be: A Cyborg

If You Were Born in 2893

If I was born in 2893 (as RaevynLunatic)

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Iara Jiro

And You Would Be: A Robot Hunter

If You Were Born in 2893

Why me, Goddess????

2006-09-27T09:02:00.000-04:00

Okay, this is a story you're NOT going to believe, but trust me, it's true.

After 13.5 hours of work yesterday I was damned ready to 'sleep in' till 7:30 or so this morning. At 7 a.m., my boss P shows up at my door saying that the alarm went off at my store and there was a report of shattered glass. So much for sleeping in. Bounded out of bed, grabbed clothes, ran my head under the sink, towel dried my hair, ran out the door with a perfunctory peck to Hubby.

5 minutes from the store, P calls me on my cell. "Don't hurry" she says. HUH? Why the hell not? My store is prolly riddled in broken glass and the cops are there and fuck, how am I going to open the store in less than two hours?

"There's nothing wrong. The platters fell down that were on top of the chips and the motion set off the alarm."

This, ladies and gentlemen, is what's known as a CLUSTERFUCK.

Hour one down, another ELEVEN to go.

*groan*

sigh

2006-09-26T08:10:00.000-04:00

It's going to be a looooooooong day.

Hypothetical question

2006-09-24T19:41:00.000-04:00

If you were a modelling agency, would you hire this little girl?

Chinese Proverbs

2006-09-23T15:06:00.000-04:00

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who run in front of car get tired.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who run behind car get exhausted.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man with one chopstick go hungry.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who scratch ass should not bite fingernails.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man! who eat many prunes get good run for money.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Panties not best thing on earth! But next to best thing on earth.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who drive like hell, bound to get there.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who stand on toilet is high on pot.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who fish in other man's well often catch crabs.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who fart in church sit in own pew.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Crowded elevator smell different to midget.

And my personal favourite (not part of this original list, mind you):

Man who put foot in mouth get athlete's tongue.

*SNORT*

Getting it off my chest...

2006-09-21T17:51:00.000-04:00

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Right then, as you were...

Listeing to you, I get the music!

2006-09-16T10:46:00.000-04:00

Brilliant. Fecking BRILLIANT.

I've never screamed, danced, clapped, cried or 'WHO! WHO! WHO! WHO!'ed so much in my entire life.

And now I'm sick as a dog with a head cold and fever.

On the last sunny weekend of the summer.

Brilliant. Fecking BRILLIANT.

Duck! Here comes a meme!!!

2006-09-13T15:40:00.000-04:00

I want to know 20 things about you; pick 20 questions from the list below and answer them. I don’t care if we’ve never talked, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don’t. My thinking is that if you’re reading my blog, I should get to know something about you too. ;-)

1. Your Middle Name:

2. Age:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favourite Movie:

5. Favourite Song:

6. Favourite Band/Artist:

7. Dirty or Clean:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

9. Do we know each other outside of the internet?

10. Whats your philosophy on life?

11. Would you have my back in a fight?

12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

13. What is your favourite memory of us?

14. Would you give me a kidney?

15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you.

16. Would you take care of me when I’m sick?

17. Can we get together and make a cake?

18. Have you heard any rumours of me lately?

19. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?

20. Do you think I’m a good person?

21. Would you drive across country with me?

22. Do you think I’m attractive?

23. If you could change anything about me, would you?

24. What do you wear to sleep?

25. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

26. Would you go on a date with me if I asked you?

27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

28. Will you re-post this so I can fill it out for you?

Chrisco would LOVE me for this!!!

2006-09-13T09:52:00.000-04:00

You Should Drive a Ford Shelby Mustang Cobra

You have an extreme need for speed, even when you're not in a hurry.
And while your flying by, you don't want to look like every other car on the road!

What 2007 Car Should You Drive?

Honesty

2006-09-09T23:11:00.000-04:00

I love my Daisy-friend.

Nuff' said.

My Ring (take 2)

2006-09-09T20:14:00.000-04:00

Here's the actual ring I received from Hubby last week. I didn't go through this gallery far enough to find the exact ring

My wedding band

Isn't it purrrrrty?!!

One down...200 some-odd to go...

2006-09-06T09:58:00.001-04:00

The kids came home from their first day of school unscathed. Hubby and I however, are a different story. All three kids came home with 'bills' for their school agendas, and Chrisco came home with that AND a bill for a math book. All told, about $30 have passed to the school's hands for these damned books. What ever happened to book budgets in public schools??? Holy fright!! And as if that weren't enough, Hubby reminded me of something this morning. Peej is in Grade 8 this year (*GAH*), ergo, he will be going to T.O. on a class trip in the spring.

I remember quite vividly my Grade 8 class trip to T.O.... because I didn't go :( My parents couldn't afford to send me. I was the only one in the entire class who couldn't go. It sucks BALLS. Mind you, we also lived in a small, northwestern Ontario town where most of the parents had high-paying jobs and had big houses that cost next to nothing (BECAUSE we were in the middle of butt-fuck nowhere... no kidding here; it was a running joke that everyone had to drive OUT ten miles to hunt and fish LOL). I'll be DAMNED if Peej is going to miss his T.O. trip this year!

Not too much else happening. The Bear started Grade 2 and Chrisco started Grade 5. He was supposed to start in French Immersion, but decided at the last minute he didn't want to go, and we won't press him. Peej did Grades 5 and 6 in Immersion and hated it. Couldn't keep up, so Grade 7 was back to normal english subjects.

I think that's all I have to say for now...

OOOH, nope, it's not. Hubby is going for an 8-5/Monday to Friday job at the company he works for and I'm asking all my witchy friends (and non-witchy friends, we can use all the prayers and best wishes we can get!) to say a little something at their next ritual that he will get it. It means so much to our family to have all five of us together in the evenings for dinner and all throughout the weekend. I can't even tell you how amazing this would be for us, and after 10 years in the same department, doing the same godsawful continental shift, I truly believe Hubby deserves a change (and the several dollar an hour pay raise won't hurt either!). Please, in your full moon rits tonight, or tomorrow, will you please say a little somthing for Hubby? Most of you don't know him personally, but She always hears us, and I truly believe that She will answer us if we look to Her whenever we are in need.

Thank you all, much love and happiness befall you all.

B*B / | \

Alright, already!! Moooooo! Joining the herd!!

2006-09-02T09:56:00.000-04:00

– List 10 television series.
– Have your friends guess your favorite character from each one.
– You can cross out the show/character when someone guesses correctly.

Note: I don’t have these series in order of preference. I’m just typing them down as I think of them.

1. ~~House~~ :: Greg House
2. ~~CSI~~:: Grissom
3. ~~CSI Miami~~:: Horatio Kane (sluuuuuurp!)
4. Star Trek:TNG ::
5. LOST::
6. ~~Rockstar: Supernova~~ :: Dilana
7. ~~Canadian Idol (this season)~~:: Eva Avila
8. Alias ::
9. ~~Survivor (favourite of all time, and no fair Minerva guessing...she already knows this one!!)~~:: Rupert
10. ~~Law and Order: SVU~~ (crap, I wrote down the wrong one! It's not CI, but SVU) :: Olivia Benson (mmmm Mariska Hargitay, another sluuuuuurp!)

Edited to add: Hey, you know, I just realized that I don't have Grey's Anatomy in there... so I'm adding an 11th!!

11. ~~Grey's Anatomy~~:: Christina Yang

So what else is new...?

2006-08-31T18:14:00.000-04:00

Yes, folks, I AM alive, though barely. As of now, I'm 'off the clock', as it were, here at work while one of my two newest employees gives a closing shift a try on his own. Therefore, I have a little time to catch you up on my little life.

Basically, things are the same around here: wake up, get dressed, get showered, drive to work, work, home, eat, sleep, lather rinse repeat. The three kids are a mere five days away from the start of the school year, so they're all excited. WTF?? Where did the summer go? I swear it was June 1st just yesterday and here we're knocking on the door at September already? What did I miss? Obviously a LOT.

I received my ring on Monday from my wonderful hubby, which I now sport proudly (the ring, not my hubby, get your minds out of the gutter, eh?!! lol!!). I'm so paranoid that I will scratch, bleach or otherwise maim this thing. I can't begin to tell you how much I love this little band of tri-coloured gold! I can't stop looking at it and squeeing (no, that's not a typo, every time I look at it I go SQUEEEE!!). It fits so perfectly and it looks so nice on my hand :)

In 15 days, Hubby and I are going to see Pete and Roger!! I can't wait! We're going to make a day of it... I get off work at 2 and we're going to go to dinner and then to the concert. Hoping we can get a hold of Parentals to keep and eye on the kids so we don't have to worry about hiring a babysitter that we really don't need, cuz Peej is 13 now but is still a little green in the baby sitting department to do any real night sitting.

*sigh* what else is new? Not too much. I went away for the weekend a couple of weeks ago, and have decided that I'm a relationship/visiting friend jinx. Without going into much detail, I witness the partial dissolution of a relationship, the torching of a friends' only vehicle and I'm telling you, I've seen more of Toronto than I care too EVER AGAIN!!! All in all, it was a great weekend, but I don't think I want to do all that by myself anymore. Best to take Hubby along for moral support and directional assistance! LOL!!

Yikes, once again, I've written a novel, and I think I've run out of things to say for now. Hope everyone is having a GRAND week, and will continue said grand week all the way through the long weekend!

stamps foot impetuously But I wanted to HELP!!

2006-08-22T20:49:00.000-04:00

Okay, first of all, soy chocolate milk is my new best friend...

Second of all, something happened this evening that definitely rated a 9.0 on my weird-shit-o-meter...

Driving home around 6:15, I was just getting to Kanata, when, about four car lengths ahead of me, a rusty brown Volvo suddenly veers off to the left and crashes into the ditch. Whoa. So, being the Good Samaritan (yeah yeah wrong religion, just go with it, k?) I fancy myself to be, I immediately skid into the shoulder, put my hazards on and reach for my cell phone, prepared to call 911 if necessary. A City of Ott*awa employee pulled in behind me, obviously doing the same thing I was doing: making sure this person wasn't hurt. I was jogging towards him, motioning to the car that I didn't know what was going on, but was en route to find out. I had JUST reached the C.O.O. guy when he turned, and we both watched, dumbfounded, as this white-haired old geezer backed his now even MORE banged up old clunker out of the ditch and squealed away, leaving the C.O.O. and I staring at each other in bewilderment. Whaddafuck just happened? I shrugged and the C.O.O. guy kind of chuckled at me as I said "Idunno, I guess he didn't want help, eh?". We concluded that either he was blind as a bat and accidentally slipped off the highway, he fell asleep at the wheel or he was, as my Dad so eloquently put it "Pissed as a newt". We figure it was probably the last, and knowing that he'd get caught driving drunk, he got out of there as soon as he cleared the fuzzies out of his skull long enough to find the little. white. lines.

He sped past us without so much as a glance in our direction. You're welcome you collosally ungrateful schmuck. I hope next time you veer that car into a rock cut. In the middle of Bumfuck Nowhere where no one passes. NYAH :P

Some people's children. SHEESH!!!

Happily married, and now it will be evident!

2006-08-14T16:58:00.000-04:00

It's a little thicker, and the band itself is white, not yellow gold, and the basket weave part is brushed gold, so it's not quite so shiny, but ladies and gentlemen, in less than two weeks I will be sporting this beauty!!

Weird f***ing weekend!!

2006-08-12T22:22:00.000-04:00

Having copious amounts of al-ca-ma-ho-hollllll with M and T in TO. Has definitely been one of the more interesting 48 hours of my life. Suffice it to say that I've seen way too much of this stupid city for my liking (yes, I got lost, smartasses).

Will update everyone when I get home (or when I get to work on Monday morning).

B*B

I'm going to have a GOOD time tonight, dammit (censor up the hilt cuz there's a 12 year old present dammit).

Ciao all!!

Tending the Fire, being a grrl with The Bear

2006-08-07T10:22:00.000-04:00

It was a truly magical night, here at the McFly Farm (heh, okay, so it's not a farm and our last name isn't McFly). We started out with the whole fam damily, roasting marshmallows and making smores around our 'new' little potbellied outdoor stove, and then I splashed some white sage on the still-glowing coals, which actually re-lit the entire fire! Hubby was a little perplexed because there really wasn't much left on the grate to re-ignite, but it did!

Then The Bear and I prepared for our night out under the stars. The forecast was calling for a 60% chance of rain and/or thundershowers, so the first thing we did is pray for NO RAIN.

We got it. It was clear all night and the crickets, the little toads and the nightingales sang us to sleep after a reading of an adaptation of Anne of Green Gables and a look through The Bear's Fairyopolis book. I remember the last thing I thought: Blessèd Mother, thank you for my little girl.

Our awakening was less than serene however. Without going into details, we had to vacate the tent pretty quickly this morning, and the magic seemed to vanish with the dawn. Hubby was waiting in the kitchen to 'welcome us home'. He'd been awake since 5:45 and we stumbled into the house around 6:30.

Aw well. My last day off of this long weekend and I'm waiting for the wash to stop so I can put it all out on the line. The kids are going to Canada's Wonderland with their grandparents (Hubby's Mom and Dad) tomorrow for three days, so getting things ready for them this week is going to be my goal today. Have a good Civic Holiday, fellow Canucks!

Witchy Wiles

2006-08-06T12:04:00.000-04:00

While my beautiful daughter watches Practical Magic, and the scent of last night's bonfire still lingers around the neighbourhood (neighbours had a party across the way with a huge bonfire in the middle of their backyard), I'm finding myself wishing I hadn't been so sick at Fest. All I've wanted to do for months now is commune with Mother and feel Her presence. The Bear and I will be spending the night camping in our backyard tonight, and I can't wait. I'm going to find my BOS in my closet and dust off a few spells. I've denied the witch in me for so long, it's about time she came back out of the closet herself! The full moon is but a few days away, and there are things that must be done, in my opinion, to strengthen things around myself and my home/family.

I wonder sometimes how I can call myself witch, when the tedium of the mundane life still seems to choke every fabric of my being of late. The Goddess knows my toils, I'm sure... in fact, I think it is She who puts these obstacles in my path from time to time just to see if I'm paying attention. I AM paying attention. I just can't seem to fit Her in my daily life like I KNOW I need to.

So, today, not being a particularly important day, I vow to play my part as Her emmissary and start acting like the witch I am.

And now that I've declared that to no one in particular, I'm going to go take a shower and send Peej out to mow the front lawn...heh.

Linkage

2006-08-04T23:09:00.000-04:00

Well...

DUHHHHHHHHH!

Why Women Are Crabby

2006-08-04T22:52:00.001-04:00

*yes, I know I've posted this in my old blog, but I thought it was time to bring it out of blothmogs (mothballs for blogs?)...*

We started to "bud" in our blouses at 9 or 10 years old only to find that
anything that came in contact with those tender, blooming buds hurt so bad
it brought us to tears. So came the ridiculously uncomfortable training
bra contraption that the boys in school would snap until we had calluses on
our backs.

Next, we get our periods in our early to mid-teens (or sooner). Along
with those budding boobs, we bloated, we cramped, we got the hormone
crankies, had to wear little mattresses between our legs or insert
tubular, packed cotton rods in places we didn't even know we had.

Our next little rite of passage (premarital or not) was having sex for the
first time which was about as much fun as having a ramrod push your uterus
through your nostrils (IF he did it right and didn't end up with his
little cart before his horse), leaving us to wonder what all the fuss
was about.

Then it was off to Motherhood where we learned to live on dry crackers and
water for a few months so we didn't spend the entire day leaning over
Brother John. Of course, amazing creatures that we are (and we are), we
learned to live with the growing little angels inside us steadily kicking
our innards night and day making us wonder if we were preparing to have
Rosemary's Baby.

Our once flat bellies looked like we swallowed a watermelon whole and we
pee'd our pants every time we sneezed. When the big moment arrived, the
dam in our blessed Nether Regions invariably burst right in the middle of
the mall and we had to waddle, with our big cartoon feet, moaning in pain
all the way to the ER.

Then it was huff and puff and beg to die while the OB says, "Please stop
screaming, Mrs. Hearmeroar. Calm down and push. Just one more good push
(more like 10),"warranting a strong, well-deserved impulse to punch the
%*#!* doctor (and hubby) square in the nose for making us cram a wiggling,
mushroom-headed 10lb bowling ball through a keyhole.

After that, it was time to raise those angels only to find that when all
that "cute" wears off, the beautiful little darlings
morphed into walking, jabbering, wet, gooey, snot-blowing, life-sucking
little poop machines.

Then come their "Teen Years." Need I say more?

When the kids are almost grown, we women hit our voracious sexual prime in
our early 40's - while hubby had his somewhere around his 18th birthday.

So we progress into the grand finale: "The Menopause," the Grandmother of
all womanhood. It's either take HRT and chance cancer in those now
seasoned "buds" or the aforementioned Nether Regions, or, sweat like a hog
in July, wash your sheets and pillowcases daily and bite the head off
anything that moves.

Now, you ask WHY women seem to be more spiteful than men, when men get off
so easy, INCLUDING the icing on life's cake: Being able to pee in the woods without soaking
their socks...

So, while I love being a woman, "Womanhood" would make the Great Gandhi a
tad crabby. Women are the "weaker sex"? Yeah right. Bite me.

V for Vendetta, my review

2006-08-03T23:44:00.000-04:00

T, you wanted to know how this movie was? I have but two words for you...

Fecking. BRILLIANT.

Now taking my blown-away ass to bed, cuz dammit, I have to work in the morning!!! I will dream of blood-red roses and of that face... oh, and of Keira Knightly too, she's HAWT!!!

The Purina Diet (no, I'm NOT going to try this!!)

2006-08-03T21:13:00.000-04:00

I have a Golden retriever & I was buying a large bag of Purina at
Wal-Mart and was in line to check out.

A woman behind me asked if I had a dog. On impulse, I told her that no,
I was starting The Purina Diet again, although I probably shouldn't
because I'd ended up in the hospital last time, but that I'd lost 50
pounds before I awakened in an intensive care ward with tubes coming out
of most of my orifices and IVs in both arms.

I told her that it was essentially a perfect diet and that the way that
it works is to load your pants pockets with Purina nuggets and simply
eat one or two every time you feel hungry & that the food is
nutritionally complete so I was going to try it again.

I have to mention here that practically everyone in the line was by now
enthralled with my story, particularly a guy who was behind her.

Horrified, she asked if I'd ended up in the hospital in that condition
because I had been poisoned. I told her no; it was because I'd been
sitting in the street licking my balls and a car hit me.

I thought one guy was going to have a heart attack he was laughing so
hard as he staggered out the door.

Edited to add: Sorry, *I* did not do this...I got this little gem in an email yesterday and had to share it, I thought it was too hilarious not to share!

Summer Solstice Dance

2006-08-02T10:41:00.000-04:00

I don't know why, but I started watching this, and I burst into tears.

Damnable hormones...

Ackers-Hay Uck-Say!!!!

2006-07-29T22:17:00.000-04:00

A Raevyn's Tale is no more *sob* It's been hacked.

UCK-FAY!!!

No, I'm not dead, just resting...

2006-06-03T07:36:00.000-04:00

Yeah yeah yeah, I know. No blogging here in almost a month. I'm busy as shit, so sue me! May descended upon us at EP and all Hades itself broke loose. Money coming in hand over fist (none of it mine, of course!), and our sales increase over 40% from this time last year (when D was still running it and the place was financially in the crapper). Got me some personal kudos from the "Big Boss", who hardly said three words to me on the one day (in a YEAR of working for him) that I met him in person.

Work has been, in a word, HELL. If I believed in a Hell. If I believed that there could be any place worse than a Hell if I believed in one. Things for PB have been surmountably (is that even a word?) worse than even what I've been going through because of the ineptitude of certain other employees of hers. For now, I'm just barely flying under her radar. I haven't screwwed up too badly (yet... wait for it, it'll come eventually! *sigh*), and I seem to be holding my own with my employees, keeping on top of what I should be keeping on top of. Next week, there's new owners of other stores coming into MY store to train with ME. *sigh* what the h-e-double hockey sticks am I going to do with two 'trainees', plus my two regular employees when I know that half of what I teach them is just going to go into interpretation mode with them and most of the good habits I feel I instill in my own employees go out the window with these guys? What if they blame me for crappy training when their stores go under? Am I worrying too much? I don't know. This is a big responsibility and I cannot believe that PB has either that much faith in me or that much disdain for me that she would drop this into my lap. Never mind that I never got a chance to express my trepidations because she went right ahead and confirmed that *I* would be training these guys first, then they'd be going to the other store for further training...

ARRRRRRRGH! My head is about to explode!

So, tomorrow, PB and I are going into Burlington/Oakville for a marketing conference. Big posh hotel, yummy snacks and all that. Whoopee. I'm looking forward to hobnobbing and to seeing my Wendy-friend on Sunday night (will be travelling by car and extra hour away to go see her at her home), but other than that, 12 hours of driving (in my car because PB's won't make it to TO) isn't my idea of funsville. And then I have to head into the city (O-town)within 6-8 hours of getting back from TO because I have to do inventory before the store opens on Tuesday morning. Whose bright idea was is to change inventory day from Thursday to Monday?? Certainly wasn't me *fume*

Okay, enough ranting. Someone I haven't talked with in over two years finally got back in touch with me this week. Am still optimistically cautious that things will have changed in the past two years. She seems happy, she sounds happy. Will know on Tuesday if she looks happy. At least I go into this knowing that if we can't patch things up as friends, I'm doing pretty okie-dokie without her and have for the past two years. I'm finally starting to become comfortable in my own skin (figuratively and literally since losing 13 pounds so far!), and I'm sure it shows in my demeanor and body language.

And besides, how can I not be in a good mood when Fest is just EIGHTEEN DAYS AWAY!! There are so many people I'm just dying to see again (and you all know who you are, because when have I ever been secretive about my feelings for any of you!!??), and I'm looking forward to selling my necklaces and keychains (I've made FIFTEEN of them in the last week and a half!), even though I know they won't hold a candle to some of the gorgeous pieces other people spend days on. I'm just going to have fun, to let loose, to DAAAAAANCE!!!!

Okay, now that I've written a novel to catch you all up, I'm going to go and take a shower and get ready for my day. Lots to do before I head to TO tomorrow afternoon. Have a great weekend, everyone!!

B*B

Mirror go boom (x-posted from other blog)

2006-05-07T07:36:00.000-04:00

As a pagan, is it wrong that I'm NOT that superstitious?

I've had this godsawful cough for about a month now and after suffering through waking myself up every 15 minutes throughout the night, I finally got up at 4:30 this morning to take some cough syrup (it was DayQuil™ but it was all I had) so I could get SOME sleep. It really worked for about two hours. At 6:30, Hubby got up to take a shower, and I was soothed by the sound of the running water, so much so that I was lulled back to sleep fairly quickly. Then 6:45 came along...

CAAAAA-RRRRRRAAAAAAAASSSSSSHHHHHHH!!!

Okay, I'm awake.

WHAT. THE. FUCK. WAS. THAT?!!!!!

Our 3 foot by 2 foot bathroom mirror came right off its moorings, shattering all over the sink, the floor, and in a few spots, my husband. He's okay, he really is. He's already headed off to work after he helped me clean up, but holy shit, I've never been so fucking scared out of my wits in my life. It was a big enough crash to scare even HIM, and this man has the blood pressure of a coma patient!

So my question to all of you is: if you were superstitious, how would you handle dealing with a broken mirror? I know the saying goes that if you break a mirror, you'll have seven years bad luck, but shit, my whole LIFE has been a series of bad luck incidents, yet they've all worked out for the best. Is there a little ritual I can do to counteract anything? Or is not believing in the superstition enough to desuade it from happening?

Pfft, to hear me talk, you'd think I WAS superstitious, eh? *looks over shoulder*

*shudder* okay okay, so I'm a LITTLE superstitious. Any thoughts?

Liebfraumilch goooood, tree pretty...

2006-04-22T20:15:00.000-04:00

Is it time for Fest yet?!!!!!!!!

I'm getting slowly drunk, no one stop me. I need this. If anyone has any prayers they wish to offer up to Morrighan, I believe I have the inkling to chant to Her tonight. It's just in me. I don't know why, but it is.

Hail! Morrighan! Blessèd be!

Funny enough, this is the only one I remember from watching it as a kid...

2006-04-18T16:05:00.000-04:00

You scored as 4th Doctor.

4th Doctor

83%

5th Doctor

75%

3rd doctor

67%

1st Doctor

58%

a Dalek

58%

7th Doctor

58%

9th Doctor

50%

Davros

33%

6th doctor

33%

2nd doctor

17%

10th Doctor

8th Doctor

What Doctor Who character are You?
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It's eight a.m..... (x-posted)

2006-04-17T08:04:00.000-04:00

... and I already have two HUGE loads of laundry out on my line.

I am one. happy. witch.

Who cares if today is my last day off of this long weekend? I have TWO HUGE loads of laundry out on my NEW CLOTHESLINE ALREADY!!!

And it's only 8 a.m.

Happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

Yes, ANYTHING!!

2006-04-08T09:01:00.000-04:00

Here's a cute little something I picked up from Jenn I Am. Ask me a question pertaining to me. ANY question, and I will answer it.

That's not to say I'll answer it truthfully, but I'll try... *wink*

I'll give my answers within a few days of getting the questions.

Squeeeee for our side!!

2006-04-07T07:50:00.000-04:00

I love William Petersen. It borders on a crush, really. Did any other witchy-type people catch anything of CSI last night? I didn't get to see much of it cuz I was talking to J for over half of it (sorry I missed you Em, you were out with your Mom!), but the last little bit really caught my eye. Gil Grissom (Petersen) was explaining to Greg (Eric Szmanda) about an entry in a murder victim's journal. The front of the journal had a pentacle and the word "death" underneath (which, I think, should have been "Life", but that's just me *grin*), and inside was a reference to the Summerland. Gil explained Summerland perfectly! "Pagans believe that the Summerland is a place where they go to rest and rejeuvanate before reincarnation" (paraphrasing). Which means that, aside from the obvious misinformation about pentacles, pagans, in a real small way, were put in a good (ish) light, by none other than a scientist!! Yay!!

I love William Petersen. He rawks my world (and my Summerland)!!!!

Three days!

2006-04-03T11:59:00.000-04:00

I got The DaVinci Code on Tuesday afternoon. I was finished by 8:00 Friday night.

Holy.

Shit.

I'm just a bloggin' fool today!

2006-03-28T15:20:00.000-05:00

Got lots of cleaning done, got lots of prep done, got lots of reading to do now, cuz M-I-L bought me "The DaVinci Code" in paperback today! She's so cool!!! *big grin* I'm in a REALLY good mood now! Now if I can just convince Hubby he needs sex tonight, I'll have a hat trick on my hands... oh...um...ahem, well, he takes his hat OFF, of course *wink*

Heh... I'm silly, aren't I?!

Hey Em... let J know that I'll be able to have that theological debate with him next time we come down to T.O. to see you. Oh, and also tell him, I don't think it's the Illuminati featured in the book, but Opus Dei, an offshoot of the Catholic Church (and unlike the Illuminati, they're a real group of people) that deals largely with mysticism and ritual.

*waves* back to the grindstone!

The difference between angels and faeries

2006-03-28T11:24:00.000-05:00

I love Anne. She's hilarious. She comes up with stuff like this all the time and I laughed so hard when I read this one I just had to share:

Faeries are spread widely among pantheons of Bored Gods, but there's no mistaking them for angels.

Angels don't hide your car keys when you're already late for work.

Angels have wings made of feathers because they live so far away up in the sky. Faeries have wings like butterflies or insects, because they hover closer to earth.

Angels take messages to God. Faeries take messages, cut them up, and re-assemble them to make all new words.

Angels do their master's bidding. Faeries do "The Hustle."

Angels live among the stars. Faeries spill the contents of jars.

*giggle* See? Hilarious!

FEST!! FEST!!! FEST!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-28T10:56:00.000-05:00

Yippee SKA-WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! Finally, my last bit of money cleared this morning and as of just about 10 minutes ago, I'm paid up and ready to go to Wic-Can Fest in June!

*happy dance for the rest of the day*

Starting countdown....

86 more days....

*tick tick tick tick*

525,600 Minutes...

2006-03-25T23:30:00.000-05:00

I just finished watching two and a half hours of a movie I spend 3/4 of the time bawling through. If the title of this post isn't enough of a hint, I watched the film version of "Rent" tonight. I have seen a LOT of stage plays (for someone with as little resources as I have, being a married mom of three), and nothing even comes close to this. Nothing. I don't think I could ever have lasted through the whole stage play. I would have been escorted out of the amphitheatre for bawling like a little girl with a skinned knee... for over two hours. If you are at all sensitive like I am, and you're planning on adding this to your Saturday 'movie night' do yourself a favour: make plans beforehand NOT to have a cold that can be exacerbated by a constant need to howl like a pack wolf in heat LOL.

I was so... MOVED... by this film, I can't even describe it to you. The whole premise of the movie was alien to me. All I knew about this musical was that it was set in New York and that it involved a bunch of friends living one year in New York. In retrospect, I'm thrilled that I knew next to nothing of the show's plot, because my reactions, I think, were exactly what the movie was designed to bring out... in everyone.

I remember at one point (just to completely change the subject), thinking "I wish *insert someone's name here* was here to watch this with me...she would have loved it!" After nearly two years, you would think that thoughts like that wouldn't cross my mind, but I was dismayed to find that they do. Frequently. Especially lately. She's cut herself off from everyone who loved her. Even the people she once considered family; people she shared a home with. They don't know if she's alive or dead, and the last time they saw her, she was painfully civil and cool (their words, not mine). It's as if, when she left our little town, the small town girl in her just perished, and what replaced her was a cruel, indecisive, aloof, numb thing that couldn't find her own heart with both hands and a flashlight (and a team of sherpas to help her). All I can think now is that she's going to have a piece of paper telling her she has a life, but all that her life will amount to is that little. piece. of. paper. Forget that she has a child. Forget that she has a family. All she'll really have is a slip of paper where a life once was.

That, to me, is more tragic than the story of "Rent".

/end dramatic (if somewhat vague) post

Like watching grass grow...

2006-03-21T16:58:00.000-05:00

Never before have I wanted anything so badly in my life. What is it? For PayPal to hurry up and take my last $50.00 out of my account so I can early register for Fest!!

I might even have a co-pilot *crosses fingers*. That way, if I get lost, I have someone to yell at LOL!!!!

Okay, okay, back to work. What a completely boring fucking day. All I've done all day is sit and dream and plan and get all excited over an event that's still THREE MONTHS AWAY!!

*sigh* I need a hobby!!

Ostara and other goodies!!

2006-03-20T16:25:00.000-05:00

First of all...

A very blessed Ostara to you all! May the coming months bring you prosperity, joy and all the Love and Happiness you can handle!

I think I'm going to go home tonight and light a few candles, spend some time meditating in my room, in front of my altar and do a cleansing of the house in honour of Eostre. I've been terribly lax in my 'witchy duties', and I feel as if I should do something special tonight just to make up for it all...

What are you all doing for Ostara? Any special plans? I'd love to hear from some of you!

Okay, I'm done for now. Have a great day everyone!!

(x-posted from other blog) Baby Bonus, how I love thee...

2006-03-18T23:38:00.000-05:00

Yes, my long-lost baby bonus came in this morning. And dammit, I was determined to SPEND IT! It was three months in arrears, a mishap created when we moved and forgot to send them our forwarding address, so when they tried to mail us something, they suspended it after three months of not hearing from us. Thankfully, we got all three months at once, and that yeilded:
A stainless steel microwave
A Wiltshire BBQ utensil set
Several club packs of various groceries (peanut butter, jam, honey, crackers, et al)
The entire original Star Wars Trilogy™ on DVD (in widescreen, no less!)
Two TFal™ deep-dish frying pans (one is an actual wok, I think)

And after I left C*stC*™, I went to Hell*Mart and bought...

*drum roll*

an Elliptical Trainer!!!
Okay, granted, it's not the piece of elliptical heaven that you'd see in your local gym, but keee-rist, am I going to have fun on that thing!!! I can't wait. Hubby bought a weight bench and several weights, and sometime this weekend he's going to draft me up an exercise regimen so I can get back into shape because...

Did I mention I'm going to FEST?!!!! SQUEEEEEEE!!!

Okay okay, enough. Just thought I'd update you on my excellent day of shopping my little heart out!!!